Anxiety

Some people who have anxiety find it hard to do things that others might find easy,like going to the shops, eating out , or even going to the cinema. Some are shy while others are confident. Anxiety affects everyone in different ways. Most people are able to deal with their anxiety without much effort, while others find it hard to leave the house without having either an anxiety or panic attack.

I've been suffering with anxiety since I was small. My anxiety made me extremely shy and quiet, I always found it hard to go to school in Primary and would refuse to go without my twin sister. My anxiety was made worse when I started getting bullied by one of my best friends.

When I got to Secondary School in 2009 I felt it was starting to get better. I was 13 and going to a school where I knew next to no one. When I got there, myself and my twin sister met a girl we did ballet with when we were five. That made the transition a little easier. In January 2010 at our friends birthday my twin sister made a new friend and we all got along really well and for a while I thought she was my friend too. Then out of nowhere she started making fun of me and saying I was always sick when in reality it was my anxiety making me sick.Then she started hitting me so I always had a panic attack whenever I had to be around her which made my anxiety worse.

In third year when I was 15 I felt it starting to get worse again and my teachers making comments saying I was always sick didn't help. None of them understood that I was dealing with anxiety, hell I didn't even understand it my self. I sat my pre. Junior Cert. exams in January 2012 and not long after my twin sister dropped out. Then I started struggling with my wisdom teeth and was in a lot of pain so I asked the Vice Principal if I could call home because I wasn't feeling well and she said no so I shouted at her and she let me (I didn't mean to shout at her but I was in pain and my anxiety was at a high. I felt really bad afterwords as hate hurting people in any way). Shortly after that in March I dropped out.

I do still struggle pretty badly with my anxiety now and I regret dropping out of school but I do feel that it is getting better. Three or four years ago we moved out to the country and I feel like that has helped with my anxiety a good bit as it is a lot more relaxing and a lot quieter. I still struggle with getting out of the house a lot but it is getting better and easier to deal with.